Why do they stick around?

This post is going to be slightly different because it just happened to be something I was thinking about the other day. Sometimes when bad things happen with my health, I feel like a horrible friend/sister/daughter/girlfriend because I feel as though all I do is put through hell all those close to me. When things happen, they’re these huge things that just cause everyone stress and worry and concern and I just don’t like being the cause of it – I’m sure that’s the way most of us feel.

So I was thinking “what makes people want to stay with me?” It might sound like a selfish question – and it probably is – but growing up with a chronic illness or other disability can make your self-image drop. Sometimes you need to step back and ask that question so that you can see just what you’re worth.


This is what my life is like sometimes!

My answer was that I’m loving and forgiving and I will sit and listen patiently to any problem you might have. I try my best to be there when you’re sick and scared and need a hand to hold or when you’re sad and need a good laugh. When you build any kind of relationship with me, you’re in for a roller-coaster ride. Those drops? They can be huge and scary and heart-attack inducing but they make the endings and the rest of the ride that much better. When the good things in life happen, I feel like I appreciate them 10 times more and I believe (or hope) I pass that mind-set on to those around me. With me, there is always something to look forward too, even when you feel like the drop is never going to end. These are the reasons why, I believe, I’m worth being around. I’m worth having a relationship with and whenever I feel otherwise, I think of what I’ve given to those around me and especially what they’ve given me back. Not only do I feel better about myself, but I feel blessed to have them all in my life.

Published in: on November 10, 2011 at 11:35 am  Comments (1)  
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I’m baaaccckkk! (said in a sing songy voice)

Hi everyone!

I know it’s been a while but I’m finally back and ready to go! Well, kind of ready to go. Ready to be ready to go is more appropriate. I just responded to a ton of comments that had been pre-marked as spam so I’m sorry if it took a while for your comment to show up. I’ll have to go take a look and fix that.

Life’s been crazy busy for the last month – one big roller coaster ride. I had a paper due at school, a mock trial, and major health issues including surgery. But the good news is most of those are done and they all went well! I got an A on the paper, my side won the mock trial, and surgery went well with no complications. I am still on the mend from it but I was able to go back to school this week though it’s still slow going. The best part of that surgery? The biopsies they took all revealed no cancer! Yay! That’s basically the only important part of that. If I can get through these things in one big dose, so can you! However..if you need a little help, I have some tips that may make things easier.

  • Surround yourself with family and friends.┬áMy parents came down for the surgery. My brother and sister and best friend talked to me throughout the weeks leading up to it. My boyfriend was with me every step of the way and my friends down here were as supportive as can be. When things get rough, they’re the first people to make you feel better. They helped all the stress I was feeling about all of those things go down ten fold. Don’t underestimate the power of a good chat.
  • Try and make those projects enjoyable. I tried to pick a topic I could analyze and argue passionately about for my paper and the time it took to write it flew by. For my mock trial, I laughed. A lot. I tried to find humor in whatever I could in that case file and it relaxed me. It made it easier to question someone in front of a jury of strangers. School and work projects really don’t take as much out of you if you’re having fun so find the humor, get a friend involved, make a study party date with some friends – you’ll be done in no time.
  • Don’t push yourself. So I’m back in school this week and I regretted it on Monday. I was just not ready to go back and I shouldn’t have forced myself. I was miserable all that day and in more pain than I had been in 4 days. It’s okay to sleep and lay in bed all day. Don’t try and do things your body is clearly telling you it’s not ready to do.
  • Eat. Busy times are probably the most important times to keep eating and eating healthy. It’ll help you keep your energy up and give you the ability to think clearly. I tend to eat less when I’m stressed and then I get tired and feel sick all the time. This time I didn’t, I forced myself to eat as normally as possible and it was so much easier to get through the last month!
I’m sure I’ll come up with more with exams coming up but that’s all I have for now. Thank you again for reading and being patient with my absence these last couple of week!
Published in: on November 2, 2011 at 4:44 pm  Leave a Comment  
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